The feeling of betrayal stings deep. To love a friend so much and never turn your back on them only for them to turn their back on you. I keep thinking to myself what would make me feel like this is just? Would I feel better if who she threw my friendship away for wasn’t a stranger? Would I feel better if I was giving fair warning? Would I feel better if the whole situation was not so childish, immoral and deluding?
I feel in life and relationships I’ve gone through a lot. I mean who hasn’t. As we age, we hope that we grow wiser and make better decisions when it comes to friendships and romantic relationships. That instead of pedaling back, we move forward. That instead of pulling someone dear to us as they drag their feet behind, we eventually walk side by side… Both better, stronger and wiser people.
Even with all the emotional pain I’ve been through thus far in life, I have never once doubted God. I have always felt like their has been some good. A lesson to learn and an opportunity to grow. I still don’t doubt God in this situation as I lay here with eyes filled with tears and wet cheeks.. But I do have questions.
I wonder how a friend can be so selfish? How can a grown woman be so naive? How dare someone spit on a quality person, someone who has been a support through good and bad. Emotionally, physically and spiritually. How dare she? How dare she feel she can get away with this without a scratch? Whilst her so called friend is left burned and bruised. For what? Money? Status? A moment in the spotlight? Attention in the meantime until the next one comes along? I wonder how someone can hurt someone they care about so deeply and not even stop and think twice for ONE second, a moment, at least?
Then I think again I am no angel. I have no been the best friend I can be to God. I have gone back on my word and made “mistakes” knowing very well the consequences wouldn’t be the best. I thought, God is my best friend.. He’s so forgiving and we always make it work out…. Wait. Is this the lesson I am learning in all this. How I have misused Gods friendship and favor, thought selfishly and expected Him to receive me in open arms each time I screw up and turn back?
I guess this is exactly what my once dear friend is doing to me. Lesson learned time to grow. My heart is sore and exhausted, but will forgive and move on. It’s time to move on. Goodbye, I wish you all the best. Thank you for this lesson.. I hope you find what you’re looking for.
This Father’s Day I’m not around to make breakfast or hang out the whole day relax and have a good time with my dad. Nonetheless I am happy to celebrate Father’s Day for a father who is always there even when he’s far. A father who never left and always fights for his family. A father who puts his children’s well being first. A father who’s supportive, a father who makes us all laugh. A father who sets a great example for his children about marriage, love and commitment. A father who is a kid a heart and isn’t too old or too serious to have a good time. A father who is creative and artsy and blesses people in so many ways through his gifts. A father who is a role model and best of all a father who is a friend. I love you Dad so so so much. Happy Father’s Day to all the amazing father’s!! You are loved and appreciated more than you know ❤️